So it Begins

My decision to live with my son for one year to help him on his road to a better life. One with no dependency on drugs, to be healthier, happier, and stronger mentally and physically. It was a decision that fate seems to move the obstacles that were in my way, mainly a relationship that no longer served any purpose for either of us. So here I am, it is May 3rd and this is the start of my year with my son.

We have rented an apartment in Brawley, close to everything and priced so when I do leave he will be able to afford the rent. We have already moved some things in and tomorrow we will move in more of what we will need to become roommates for a year. I know there will be times when both of us will wonder what the hell we were getting ourselves into but I think for both of us it will be a turning point in re-learning a little bit about the other. We were close at one time but people and circumstances change that. Now maybe we can get back to understanding each other and not being so tough of each other.

So far there is still others surrounding us, so for the most part we have not been alone with each other. I am hoping we will be able to be around each other for the next few weeks without getting on each others nerves. While I feel I need to help my son I still need to maintain my sense of self and have my own private time. Whether it be alone in the apartment or just going off by myself to do my "stuff". To go visit friends and have a little fun. Its not me that I am trying to help but him. I need to understand that he is a man and he also has needs of his own. He may not want mom around when friends are there. So I have someplace to go if we need a break from each other. Either the ranch, Anna's, or my mom's. Someplace where I can regroup or just be away from him for a short time.

So here is to new beginnings. A year of learning, reconnecting, communication, growing, and learning to not only find peace but love within ourselves. For this is not only of year of change for my son, but a year of new changes and possibilities for me as well.